My Diary I : Forced ( Keterpaksaan )

I just nobody in your life ...
I just a person who like disturb the other life ...
I want to know you ...
But, i think that i can't ...
Cause, indeed i'm not appropriate to get it ...
Cause, the all of false was come from me ...
I know that you were forced to give me this chance ...
It was looked, with your spoken, your behavior, and change of your nature ...
I know that i was come just for disturb your life ...
I know that i'm false, i know that i'm not perfect human like your idols ...
I just human that full of false, crime, shortage, infamy, and i don't have anything ...
You know that i'm bad ... but, why you choose me ago ...
Maybe in your mind that i'm the boy that you hope ...
But, the true false was in me ...
I don't think before i choose you to be a queen in my deepest heart ...
I almost make you sad, cry, angry, hate, and yelled me ...
I always want to be a better boy ...
I always try to change all of my badness all this time ...
I know i just a nightmare in your sleep and your life ...
But, i love you so much ...
That make me can't let you go ...